Lets see were did i leave of oh yes i believe it was February when i found out i was pregnant so Jason smokes pot (I don't but he isn't angry when he smokes so i would much rather him smoke then drink) on valentines day he told me we were going to go see a movie and instead of doing that he went to his friends house and got some pot I got so pissed. (i may have over reacted but that was hormones) any way the day i found out i was pregnant the end of February we were on our way to get his car checked out and we got into a fight and he hit my head against the car door (owww). Then when i took the test i was happy but sad at the same time who wants to have a child with someone who hurts you. The next nine months sucked i had a rough pregnancy and he didn't want to help me. Every time i wanted to talk about the baby he would ask if i ever shut up. And i got really sick and was throwing up every hr severely dehydrated so he kicked me out of the room cause i was waking him up (he didn't have a job yet) and wouldn't take me to the hospital when i couldn't keep any water down (i was afraid i was going to lose the baby). 2 weeks later he got sick with what ever i had and guess who had to be there for him. Yup i cleaned up his puke shit ext while pregnant. Those were my happy adventures before my baby my next post will include things about my little girl (honestly most of my blogs are probably going to be about him because he is my biggest stresser) Thanks for Reading!!!

Ok this is the first time that i have ever blogged. I thought this would be great to get my stress out and be able to talk freely. If you don't like what i have to say stop reading.

Were to start I meet my current boyfriend in June 07 (this is much needed back round) we meet on adult friend finder (something I'm not proud of) at the time i was pregnant we were only talking online so that was ok then July 10th (my 19th birthday) i found out i was having a miscarriage. That time in my life sucked i stoped going online until the end of July early August. I then continued to talk to Jason (my boyfriend) we decided to move in together as roommates (i only met him in person end of August early September) wo wicked fast and when i mean room mates i mean sleep together and share the same bed but he still could go out and have sex with anyone he wanted. That was my second mistake. We moved in to our apartment in October I was the only one working (he helped pay first and last). At the end of October he got arrested. He brought a girl to our apartment got drunk and ended up beating her (telling me he didn't do it but now i know better) I ended up having to use all my hard earned money (and the money for rent) to bail him out. The next few months sucked he never got a job he sat on his computer all the time waking off and yelling at me (oh and screwing some chick in his car while i was driving and he was drunk again.) In January of 08 I had taken to many depression meds (don't ask me why cause i honestly don't remember anything from that day all i know is when i finally came to my welbutrin was all but empty) was trying to go to work (i worked 11pm to 7am) when i got there i told the guy i was feeling dizzy. He told me i was drunk and to go home i was fired (i wasn't drunk i don't drink at all alcohol makes me sick) on my way home i plowed into a tree. After that Jason went to jail for 7 months. Life was great i moved in with his mom had all the support i needed me and Jason would write letters back and forth and talk every night on the phone. Then when he got out life started to suck again. Same shit as before only this time we were dating. In February 09 I found out i was pregnant with my beautiful daughter amber.

Want to here more ill post the rest either later or tomorrow my daughter needs me right now (sorry its a long story but it feels good to Finlay tell it)